A Mirror is Harder to Hold

We could stay a while longer
We could stay up and talk about last summer
We could go down to the water
Watch the sunset going under
It's not that I'm a stranger to lonely moments
I've had my share of those
Please don't go, Please don't leave me alone
A mirror is so much harder to hold

I could try and point the finger
But the glass points in my direction
Sure you got your sharp edges
But my wounds are from my own reflection
You've got nothing I could hold against you
I've got fatal flaws to call my own
Please don't go, Please don't leave me alone
A mirror is so much harder to hold

I met a man who was looking for perfection
Said he never met a girl who was good enough
His eyes were getting old like they'd love to love again
Such a lonely man, such a lonely man

I see him in my reflection
Taking steps towards me these days
So I hold you that much closer
And pray we don't throw this away
It's not that I'm a man who couldn't love you
I know what these arms are for
Please don't go, Please don't leave me alone
A mirror is so much harder to hold

A mirror is so much harder to hold
Please don't go, Please don't leave me cold
A mirror is so much harder to hold

The lyrics above are the lyrics for a song by Jon Foreman. The song was sent to me a long time back and I was just like, hm, nice song, you know. Well, last night, I was able to understand a little better the meaning of it. A mirror is definitely harder to hold, and my life requires some serious re-examination.

Realization

There is much I have forgotten when I came into college. Focusing only on my social life, I took for granted a lot of things. My life got so busy that all I could do was hang out, then work, hang out and work. It was a drab process. I think I need to get a better work ethic and schedule down, so I can really make daily time for friends who have been there for me in the past, for family, for spending quiet time with God. I put up a show too much, hiding behind feigned knowledge and smiles. I haven't spent enough time in the Scripture lately. However, reading over the old testament, I have still found this one piece of scripture so very appealing, and I repeatedly fail to live up to it

11 "The multitude of your sacrifices—
what are they to me?" says the LORD.
"I have more than enough of burnt offerings,
of rams and the fat of fattened animals;
I have no pleasure
in the blood of bulls and lambs and goats.

12 When you come to appear before me,
who has asked this of you,
this trampling of my courts?

13 Stop bringing meaningless offerings!
Your incense is detestable to me.
New Moons, Sabbaths and convocations—
I cannot bear your evil assemblies.

14 Your New Moon festivals and your appointed feasts
my soul hates.
They have become a burden to me;
I am weary of bearing them.

15 When you spread out your hands in prayer,
I will hide my eyes from you;
even if you offer many prayers,
I will not listen.
Your hands are full of blood;

16 wash and make yourselves clean.
Take your evil deeds
out of my sight!
Stop doing wrong,

17 learn to do right!
Seek justice,
encourage the oppressed. ^[a]
Defend the cause of the fatherless,
plead the case of the widow.

18 "Come now, let us reason together,"
says the LORD.
"Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool.

Isaiah 1:11-18